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So i am sitting her, having "one of those days". Can’t seem to see the sun for the clouds, or even that allusive silver lining...
Several things plague my mind...

I am not your girlfriend, or even best friend...i shouldn't be the one giving you advice about your social life...i o it, because of who i truly am (not who you think you see), because i care tremendously...and while i do it, i allow it to cut to my very core, but you cannot see it

i reached out to you, when you were almost homeless...i gave you a place to stay, a ride when you needed it...an open ear...you took advantage of me, threw mutual respect right out the window...played it off as if it was nothing, showed how much i really didn't matter...

i have done nothing to you...but you continually throw out your barbs about how terrible i am...you do not know my heart...you do not understand that it was two that caused the situation equally...you only see my mistakes, judging harshly those things that you do not understand...you do not know my heart, how it is broken and has been for many, many years...i love you more than you will ever know, more than i will ever show...

Littles, you see my heart, i share my love with you openly and honestly...hang in there, things will get better...one day, they will be better again...