No matter what you do or say...it just never quite is enough...
Maybe I read into things, that which is truly not there...maybe I have hope in humanity...that my faith will not...is not faltering...
But I cannot say that...I am at that breaking point between caring and not...hoping and completely giving up...having faith or abandoning everything...
I try to put positive vibes out...hoping that karma will one day swing back to me...I feel crazy...I question how much bad juju I have put out in the past...wondering if all that is present is due in part to the past...
I honestly don't know...honestly want to give up and throw in the towel... I find my self questioning everything as I try to understand where I am at...
I need her to find her own place...this has gone on far too long...
I am at that point...a breaking point, about to be overcome by the waves of life...unable to catch a solid foothold ...unable, it seems, to draw breath...
So tired...so alone...so...
