Wandering mind...

Have you ever faced that moment...you know the one...where you realize that you are no longer needed by those around you...

No matter what you do or say...it just never quite is enough...

Maybe I read into things, that which is truly not there...maybe I have hope in humanity...that my faith will not...is not faltering...

But I cannot say that...I am at that breaking point between caring and not...hoping and completely giving up...having faith or abandoning everything...

I try to put positive vibes out...hoping that karma will one day swing back to me...I feel crazy...I question how much bad juju I have put out in the past...wondering if all that is present is due in part to the past...

I honestly don't know...honestly want to give up and throw in the towel... I find my self questioning everything as I try to understand where I am at...

I need her to find her own place...this has gone on far too long...

I am at that point...a breaking point, about to be overcome by the waves of life...unable to catch a solid foothold ...unable, it seems, to draw breath...

So tired...so alone...so...